Sunday, November 2, 2008

Oh Beautiful Sleep

Without enough sleep, we all become tall two-year-olds.
~JoJo Jensen, Dirt Farmer Wisdom, 2002

If people were meant to pop out of bed, we'd all sleep in toasters.
~Author unknown, attributed to Jim Davis
The amount of sleep required by the average person is five minutes more.
~Wilson Mizener
The feeling of sleepiness when you are not in bed, and can't get there, is the meanest feeling in the world.
~Edgar Watson Howe
Daylight savings time with children is not an extra hour of sleep. No, it is an extra hour of morning.

I have not slept well for some time now. My belly, back and bladder wake me many times at night. Couple that with my almost two-year-old who often thinks 1:14 AM and then again 4:35 AM is morning and you can imagine how frustrated and hopeless I can let myself feel on any given morning.

Being awoken at 4:30 AM has too often lead to the complete end of my night's sleep as my body is just too sore to lay down any longer. And so I have prayed many times that the Lord would give me uninterrupted sleep. I tell you the truth: I cannot function without beautiful sleep: "Lord, just let Weston start sleeping every night through the night. Please! Before the baby comes at least! And, Lord, give me a couple nights in a row just to catch up so I can be the mom you want me to be." But on one of those prayerful, sleepless mornings the Lord allowed me to see something new: Sleep had become my idol. I had begun to believe that no amount of God would help me become the mom during the day that I knew I needed to be - only beautiful sleep could do that. God wanted me to trust in HIM and what HE can do more than I trusted in SLEEP.

Upon being shown this, my prayer quickly changed, asking instead that regardless of how much sleep the night brought me, that I would depend wholly and solely upon the only One who could get me through my day to His glory.

I wish I could say that after this epiphany - this lesson that God was trying to teach me - that He then gave me night after night of sleep (since, after all, I had finally learned what God was trying to reveal to me). No. He has not. I now am being asked to live in this new understanding, testing my faith and providing me many opportunities to trust in Him for what I need in a day.

While I do still love sleep, that is not a bad place to be.


Megan said...

Those quotes are oh so true! It is always great to have perspective and a new trust in the Lord. But it is also hard in this last trimester with it's lack of sleep and constant discomfort. Hang in there, sweet baby number 4 is worth every moment of pain.

Curtis and Jane said...

First of all, congrats on your pregnancy! THat is so exciting.
Last year we missed day light savings and didn't sleep in. THis year we have a I totally get your "one more hour of morning" thing.
Thank you for your blog on sleep. It sounds like you are getting less than I am, but it was encouraging none the less.
Hang in there!

Alison said...

Jenne-great post and great perspective change. I needed that. Jack is a great sleeper. Actually, he's a fabulous sleeper, but I always seem to be tired and in need of a bit more sleep. What a good reminder that I really just need to change my perspective and put my focus on what it should be on.

Living Balanced said...

I love the one about the toaster! I struggle big time when I don't get the sleep I desparately need. I feel your pain.

Whatever God uses to bring us to faith is worth it though. I have something I'm working through and it is the faith I struggle with the most, yet I know He wants me to have it so I can live the life He has planned for me.